I really need to thank God that he has given me such lovely parents. No matter what I have done or what I am, they are always supportive.

Last Saturday, the Family Day is very good. We had a lot and talk a lot. Everything is all right and I am so thankful that we can keep our house clean. R is very responsible with his duties and T is making a progress in playing Guitar. When I am sitting in the living room and looking at them, I just feel very thankful. This week, we are not going to invite any friends and will enjoy our “ lonely” day. Haha…

I have not received the student card yet. I do not know why British people. Their work is lack of efficiency and I do not know what happened to my laptop. It is beautiful but useless. You can never trust the things are beautiful in appearance. I kept calling the support centre for two days and the result has come out. I just feel very helpless and has one idea: go back China! Everything goes abnormal in England and what I can do is nothing. I can not find the value here. Ai… there are more coming! What I can do is just pray. The best I can do is pray.

I have been back to UK for 10 days. Now I am living with 3 brothers in Christ. They are so gentleman and gave me the right to choose the room first. My dearest sister chose the biggest one for me. I bought a cheap desk but it is quite nice and absolutely suitable for me. The procedures I need to do for my visa or university is processing and hope that everything will be all right.

Living with three guys is not that easy. They are very talkative and I am closing to their biologic clock and go to bed very early in the morning/.

As it is my first time to live with Christians, I do expect something that I have never experienced. We are one family so that I am trying to do my best. Sometimes I am so moved that they will not forget me. They asked to watch TV with them. They asked me to have midnight snack with them. Haha… we set a day as our family day which is Saturday. I am looking forward to that and hope to enjoy every day when I am living in K5.

Another sister in Christ is going to move in. She is tidy and lovely. I am always expecting her smiling and excited expression. My God, thanks for giving me such brothers and sisters.

One brother is going to Nottingham University. He shared some songs and feeling about the last year yesterday night. I am so moved. I have been in YAF for more than 3 months and feel warm in church. Even I have much that I can not say and not going to say, I am happy to go back to this family. Lyrics : give him all the tears and sadness. I do not know what I am bearing but maybe as it says, just give all to my lord. He said I am more gentle now which I did not noticed. It is the third year I am in England. What will happen to us and what will happen to me?

One brothers gave us a talk about love and lust. That is fantastic and I am so happy to meet the couples in our church. They are nice and thanks God that we have time to chat. I know one status  others do not so that I understand what we come up with. I felt so hard about it. Tears will never solve problems out. Leaving is easy but we all know we staying is more brave. I chose to talk, I chose to ignore and I chose to be brave. Happy truly from heart! When ???

回来珠海三个月，终于在要走的时候，拾起一个人的心情，看起了电影，什么幻想，什么期待，什么盼望通通都没有了的时候，人就闲了，电影就成了充斥生活的一部分，将要做电影的朋友们，加油啊，为我们以后的生活添一点色彩。

选要看这电影不为别的，虽然很仓促，但是选对了。不知道这是自己喜欢的文艺片，不知道里面男主角的帅气，不知道女主角的深刻表现，但是选了，也就看了，有想法了，就写点东西了。

剧情没有什么好谈的，就是以罗密欧和朱莉叶的爱情故事做奠基，然后诉说两个相爱的年轻男女在对立家庭中的挣扎，当然年轻人嘛，冲动还是不忘理性的。我大概也会是典型的例子。父母的不同意，怎么可以建立一生的盟约呢?男女主角不能向名著中的人物那样壮烈离开人世界，就得向现实屈服，可又带着傲气和我最敬佩的一份坚持。两地分开后前期有书信来往，精神上是很充实的，并且字里行间漾出了的关怀与情义不能说不让人感动啊。当然，剧本到这里也应该来点现实的东西了，两人分开时间长了，误会也出现了，加上家庭的压力和人不可能失去的怀疑（正在谈恋爱的人都有的），两人无联系了。时间一日一日的过去，不死的东西就得坚持，他活在她心当中，她也总是占着他心中那个位置，时间改变了很多东西，潮流在变，可那么一点没有变。我说到这里，大家大概已经知道这电影的结局了，到父母被感动后，两人缘到了的时候，份就本来有了，就在一起了。坚持是那么的一种美丽莫测。比任何我见过的东西都要美丽，彩虹下的约定（经典之作）当中我想我更是热爱男女主角的坚持与忍耐。爱啊！真的少了一点坚持就夸倒了。神什么时候放弃过我们?

如果你没有兴趣就不要看了，我并没有推荐这电影，只是情人结也好，情人节也好，兄弟姐妹们啊，多坚持一下，不是变了就一定美丽，不是这一刻的坚持就一定永恒，但至少我祝愿你们过好每一个情人节！

        好久好久没有在自己的space上发表一点感想了。此时此刻，外面尽是闪电，雷暴和风雨，我就在不属于自己的房间内终于提起勇气写点东西。听着别人的歌，感受着这一刻自己的心情。在想，该是描述一点东西还是就一点东西发表看法呢？

回珠海三个月了，总的来说就是乐在其中，父母的陪伴，朋友的宠爱，让我真想不到回英国的理由是什么了。真的为读书吗？似乎我还不是这么爱读书吗？真的要逃避吗？似乎我又不曾遇见如此大的困境。真的为将来吗？其实实习两个月之后更发现行行都出状元的道理是很确切的。不管你在什么地方，真的努力一下就很好了。在中国，机会多地你都是不感想象的啊！醉身于社会，未尝没有出头的路子。大概回英国的最大支持除了我最爱的父母的经济支持外，就是在MEC看到的关于我要离开父母的一断经文了。

        最近遇到了点事情，很多的话又是说不出来了。自己浮游在成千上万个角度去看同一样事情，结果还是没有结果，结果还是没有答案，结果还是懂得多，结果还是知道得多。但现实一个问题是，我还不能那么地博爱。此刻，我不完美，就因我们的罪。爱大概在天空中，因为有雨天后的另人心动的彩虹，因为有漆黑夜了璀璨闪烁的星星和月亮，因为有寒冷冬日的暖阳。爱是恒久的，若在当中，就必显现。爱在天空中，若在当中，就毕遇见。爱存人心里，若在当中，就定靠信念。

       觉得时凭依感觉的，觉得时凭依天气和身体的，下雨，下雪，睡眠不足，痛苦难当，都会影响我们的心境，叫我不能觉得真实的存在。有一件东西 比觉得更高超，更幸福。这就是不随外面的庆幸转变的。就是信念。

        写不下去了！